Your heart desires…

God knows all your heart desires… Do you leave it at His feet or do you push doors open wen you see the opportunity? 

Sometimes we are so caught up in our little dream-world that we see every second thing as the right thing for us, even though we know in our heart that it’s not exactly what we want. What ever the case may be; relationships, material things, jobs and even the calling God gave us. What we don’t realise is that when we grab everything that comes our way with all we got, then it is an act of disbelieve and fear of not getting better. I know that the world has a lot of cool things to say, like “live life to the fullest and grab every situation”… and lots more like “if you don’t try then you wouldn’t know”. Yes, live life to the fullest but why go for something that your heart says no to. In a couple of years you think to yourself, why I didn’t listen to my heart. I never even liked the new home or car or what ever we got our self in to. Even why try a relationship when the person is not quite what you were looking for, in a few months one of you will get hurt. So why try then, if we know what we want.

We shouldn’t rush situations, especially relationships or debt. Leave everything in God’s hands, I know that after we do that then we fear sometimes; what if God don’t answer or what if someone else gets it?

But Gods Word says in Psa 37:9 For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the LORD shall inherit the land.

May God guide you and bless you.

A few years later.

This is one of the times I played guitar with the youth band of Roepersfontein Church Kriel.

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Lead & Guitarist: Conrad Bouwer

Vocal: Zelda Jordaan

Drummer: Charl Vermeulen

Bass Guitarist: Quintin Nortjé

Organ: Jaco Marais

Electric Guitarist: Lourens Oberholzer

It's a big improvement from where I started.

Don’t just think that your dreams are just a thought, it could be a vision planted by God.  If you start of, it will be small that’s why you should not compare yourself with others or to the world’s standers. Even if you water a church’s flowers and that’s your vision then you have a big part in the Kingdom of God.

This is a vision that started when I was about 21 years old.

My sister was in a church where she was singing in the choir. Those days I didn’t attend church much but were longing to have a relationship with Jesus Christ from the age of 11.

One day, before a church conference, the lady that was leading the choir wanted a person who can play lead electrical guitar for her. Then my sister told them that I can play and she will ask me. I never thought that I’ll ever play on stage and those days it was only a hobby to do when I didn’t have anything better to do. So I went to try, although I wasn’t very good at that time. I went for the practice and it was a nightmare. I couldn’t read or play even half of the chords they were playing. So I prayed and ask God; if You want me to play, then I will. Even though I didn’t have a good relationship with God I thought I’ll try. My life was a big mess and I had a lot of sin, I didn’t even think God will even hear my prayer. After practice I told them I need the chords to practice, that was the Wednesday. The person who was playing the organ told me he will have it ready by Thursday but something came up and he couldn’t bring it to me.

Well, the Sunday came and I still didn’t have any chords. Before the service was starting, some of the people who saw I was at practice told my sister that I shouldn't play because I never attended the church. Then they went to the pastor’s wife and told her the same. Well I didn’t practice so I was relived. But then the pastor’s wife started crying and said she had a vision of God that I should play. Then I went to the prayer room before the service and couldn't stop stressing, all I could think about was that I didn’t know even one song. So we walk up the stage and started playing… I of course, acted like I was playing but had a wonderful experience with God.

I'm the dude with the charcoal Ibanez guitar

After a few weeks I felt eager to play again, I wanted that feeling again. I played in a couple of churches and youth after that but just keep on making mistakes and feel nervous. But there is one thing that keeps me going… I don’t do this for myself or anyone else but for God. This vision in my heart won’t stop and this blog-site is built on faith, I will be an instrument in God’s hands.