How I met the Father

A dream I had on 31 January 2011 about 4:50 the morning.

I dreamed that I was taking a walk while I was talking to God, I past a well known creek and there were old buildings that I've never seen there before. It looked like big storing places and businesses that went bankrupt. I turned in there to have a better look.

By a corner at one of the buildings, there was a police officer that was arresting a man. I was curious but kept walking. Further on, past the building I realized that it was a dead end. I decided to turn around and head home because it was getting dark. At the corner where the arrest is taking place, was an old man. The old man started speaking to me, telling me how negligent the officer was because the suspect will escape. I thought to myself but how can the old man be so negative, the suspect doesn't even look harmful. But I understand that there was trouble between race and they didn't trust each other (the police and suspect was the same race and it felt to me they trusted each other but the old man wasn't the same race and did not trust them). Then suddenly the suspect grabbed the gun from the police officer who was leaning forward in the police vehicle. I thought that the suspect is going to tell the officer and old man to let him go. I didn't want to have any part of it and turn around to walk away. The suspect then started to shoot; he killed the officer and the old man. I started to run but stopped when I realized I'm running towards the dead end. I turn back and saw the suspect with the gun pointing at me. I could see that he didn't want to shoot me but he can't trust anyone because of the old man who made a big deal of a small offense. The suspect was panicking over the situation he just made it worse by shooting people; he had a fear for jail that is convincing him to shoot. I told him that he don't have to worry I will not recognize him, I then turn around to show him that I'm not looking at him to recognize him later.

The gun went off and the bullet went through my upper leg, I then fell on the ground. I thought, well, I will survive it, it is not a deadly wound. I looked towards him, thinking he will run away but he started shooting again but not looking at me or aim as if he didn't really want to shoot me. I felt the bullets ripping through my kidneys, liver and the rest of my organs. I then realized that a doctor won't be able to save me even if he was at the scene. I told the suspect to shoot me through the head because if the adrenaline works out I'm going to have a painful death. Then he asked me "may I" I said yes (I could hear in his voice that he had regret). He put the gun to my head and pulls the trigger.

Everything went dark for 2 seconds and then I saw a very bright light. It was like I was flouting above the clouds. While I was floating down slowly my life run through my head, I never got married, I never had a nice car or house, never a good job or wealth and I couldn't even remember one day I was actually happy. The more I went down the more I felt a presence of Love and it was getting stronger. I saw a bed on a big green lawn and landed next to it. About that time, my life on earth didn't bother me anymore because I was overwhelmed by this Love. In the bed was an old Man with PJ's on that I recognized as God and there was Someone next to Him. God then turned towards me and said "you don't have to worry anymore; here We do what We want". God was glowing of the most Love that I can't explain. While He was saying that, I grabbed His arm and held tightly. I realized that I was six years old again and had no needs just the Love of my Father.

I started to wake up and realized the hate I have for myself, the more I gained consciousness the more I realized I was in the presence of the God almighty. I saw the sins I haven't repented yet, like swearing a person in my mind that angered me and small stuff that we don't recognize as sin anymore. The disgust feeling I had for myself was the same as a woman will feel for a rapist. I just wanted to go back to that presence far away from this sin. The moment you exit God's presence, I guess then you see things the way God see it. One sin isn't bigger then the other. God hate sin but He will always Love us.

There is nowhere I have felt Love like that, like in the presence of God. In the beginning of the dream I was speaking to God while I was walking, so I had more compassion when I faced my enemy. Even to the point of death, I did not hate my enemy. I was the same race as the old man and would have teamed up with him if I didn't have a strong relationship with God. I felt that God just want me to spread that Love that God have for us. To tell the world that God understand how you feel and that it is why He send His Son. For us to live with that Love, treat each other with that Love and let's be the least and stop racism from our side.

The Good News

Jesus came to earth to save us from sin and I am spreading the Good News...

Is it really good news to most of us? Destroying your body and other people's hearts are great fun the devil say. Why do we fall for that?

If Jesus cross our path and say "go and sin no more", what will we say? "No God, it is great fun, I want to keep it" or will we go and sin no more? I know that preachers don't preach sin anymore and that sin is not a big deal to people and yes, Jesus don't judge us but we will be judge on judgment day. 

Joh 8:11  She said, "No one, Lord." And Jesus said, "Neither do I condemn you; go, and from now on sin no more." 

The same count for us, when Jesus cross our way we can choose, sin or stop sin. 

Psa 1:5  Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous; 6  for the LORD knows the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish. 

and

Rev 14:8  Another angel, a second, followed, saying, "Fallen, fallen is Babylon the great, she who made all nations drink the wine of the passion of her sexual immorality." 9  And another angel, a third, followed them, saying with a loud voice, "If anyone worships the beast and its image and receives a mark on his forehead or on his hand, 10  he also will drink the wine of God's wrath, poured full strength into the cup of his anger, and he will be tormented with fire and sulfur in the presence of the holy angels and in the presence of the Lamb. 11  And the smoke of their torment goes up forever and ever, and they have no rest, day or night, these worshipers of the beast and its image, and whoever receives the mark of its name." 12  Here is a call for the endurance of the saints, those who keep the commandments of God and their faith in Jesus. 13  And I heard a voice from heaven saying, "Write this: Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on." "Blessed indeed," says the Spirit, "that they may rest from their labors, for their deeds follow them!"

What clothing do you wear and what photos to you pose in, is it that of babylon? If you read carefully the scripture above, then you will notice. Those who tempt men with their bodies will carry the same judgment as the satan worshipers, because men are easily tempted by their eyes and allot of men has fallen because of temptation from women.

Any model today will ask "what is wrong with swimwear and underwear posing"?... that will be the words of the same model that said "I will never pose like that" when she started. Don't make a god of fame and money. You really don't have to pose like that to show that God gave you a beautiful body, instead worship God with your bodies and have internal life. 

Like the whore Jesus said to go and sin no more, she was the cause of a lot of heartbreak when wife's find their husband by her. how do you think other women must feel if they see their husband admiring your body?... How will you feel when your husband admire another woman? I can imagine, it must feel like hell.

If you read you're Bible then you will know that sin is serious stuff, it is not taken lightly. Forgiveness is there but if the trumpet blows or you die with sin in your hands you will be thrown in hell... I don't say so, the Word of God says so and God is not a lair.

Most people ask God why are You so cruel to create hell... I think God ask us, "why are you so cruel to lie to girls to get them in to bed? Why do you pretend to love a man when you married him for his money and cheating on him? Why do you tease the poor and step on the weak? Why do you make life hell for people around you?... Why do you hate my Son when he died for you? 

Joh 14:21  Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him." 22  Judas (not Iscariot) said to him, "Lord, how is it that you will manifest yourself to us, and not to the world?" 23  Jesus answered him, "If anyone loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. 24  Whoever does not love me does not keep my words. And the word that you hear is not mine but the Father's who sent me. 

So how can we say we love Jesus if we do not keep His commandments and ignore His Word?

But really, why did God create hell? The hell was created for the devil and the fallen angels who wanted to take God's place on the throne. They started to think they are stronger then God. The devil tempts people to sin and some of us do too. So why will God throw only the devil in hell and not us if we do same as the devil do.

Is it a loving God who created hell... I will say yes, but I don't want anyone to end up there. So please listen to the Word of God.

God Bless you.

Sorry Father, sorry.

Every time I go to church and the pastor preaches, all I can say is sorry Father sorry.

What do you say when your pastor or preacher preaches? If not sorry, then you are either perfect or you went from church to church until you found the one that tickle your ear. Sometimes we also think because we are a Christian that we have the right to do sin even if 1Co 6:10 say that “Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God”. In fact there are a lot of verses that say we mustn’t sin and describes what sin is.

If we look at the things that are happening in today’s life then I can’t think of anything else but that Jesus is on His way to fetch His bride. So our lamps must be full of oil.

A lot of people say that it is now the time more than ever. I think if we only started earlier… the false profits were born in the era where we stopped preparing for the coming of Jesus.

I came across a lot of people these past years that don’t even know that most of the things they do is described in the Bible as sin. Most  of the time I am accused of judging if I try to correct people but I’m not on this earth to tickle anyone’s ear. The Word of God say in Mat 28:19 “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost: 20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age."  So I wonder… who is the one that say that teaching is judging?

For some reason we run away from people that try to teach us and go to people that say “ come on, it’s only a movie/song/one cigarette/one drink or a innocent dance. But in 1Co 10:31 are written that “Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God”. Who are you glorifying if you dance with revealing clothing in a pub? And can you say that you are glorifying God if you dance to a so called love song. 

God never said sex is Love and that is what all “love songs” are about. I never even heard a song where someone actually wanted to get married to the person before doing anything of that kind. God’s Word say in Heb 13:4 that “Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous”. And 1Co 7:2 “But because of the temptation to sexual immorality, each man should have his own wife and each woman her own husband.” Not boyfriend or girlfriend…

So please people, I don’t say this to judge but to warn you out of Love. God want us to live holy and not by our sinful nature. One sin isn’t bigger than the other but in 1Co 6:18 is written “Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. 19 Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, 20 for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.” 

The devil is trying to catch us with this one; in today’s society it is normal to have sex before marriage. The world change but God will never change.

Do all thing to glorify God.

Your heart desires…

God knows all your heart desires… Do you leave it at His feet or do you push doors open wen you see the opportunity? 

Sometimes we are so caught up in our little dream-world that we see every second thing as the right thing for us, even though we know in our heart that it’s not exactly what we want. What ever the case may be; relationships, material things, jobs and even the calling God gave us. What we don’t realise is that when we grab everything that comes our way with all we got, then it is an act of disbelieve and fear of not getting better. I know that the world has a lot of cool things to say, like “live life to the fullest and grab every situation”… and lots more like “if you don’t try then you wouldn’t know”. Yes, live life to the fullest but why go for something that your heart says no to. In a couple of years you think to yourself, why I didn’t listen to my heart. I never even liked the new home or car or what ever we got our self in to. Even why try a relationship when the person is not quite what you were looking for, in a few months one of you will get hurt. So why try then, if we know what we want.

We shouldn’t rush situations, especially relationships or debt. Leave everything in God’s hands, I know that after we do that then we fear sometimes; what if God don’t answer or what if someone else gets it?

But Gods Word says in Psa 37:9 For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the LORD shall inherit the land.

May God guide you and bless you.

A few years later.

This is one of the times I played guitar with the youth band of Roepersfontein Church Kriel.

Best Friend

Lead & Guitarist: Conrad Bouwer

Vocal: Zelda Jordaan

Drummer: Charl Vermeulen

Bass Guitarist: Quintin Nortjé

Organ: Jaco Marais

Electric Guitarist: Lourens Oberholzer

It's a big improvement from where I started.

Don’t just think that your dreams are just a thought, it could be a vision planted by God.  If you start of, it will be small that’s why you should not compare yourself with others or to the world’s standers. Even if you water a church’s flowers and that’s your vision then you have a big part in the Kingdom of God.

This is a vision that started when I was about 21 years old.

My sister was in a church where she was singing in the choir. Those days I didn’t attend church much but were longing to have a relationship with Jesus Christ from the age of 11.

One day, before a church conference, the lady that was leading the choir wanted a person who can play lead electrical guitar for her. Then my sister told them that I can play and she will ask me. I never thought that I’ll ever play on stage and those days it was only a hobby to do when I didn’t have anything better to do. So I went to try, although I wasn’t very good at that time. I went for the practice and it was a nightmare. I couldn’t read or play even half of the chords they were playing. So I prayed and ask God; if You want me to play, then I will. Even though I didn’t have a good relationship with God I thought I’ll try. My life was a big mess and I had a lot of sin, I didn’t even think God will even hear my prayer. After practice I told them I need the chords to practice, that was the Wednesday. The person who was playing the organ told me he will have it ready by Thursday but something came up and he couldn’t bring it to me.

Well, the Sunday came and I still didn’t have any chords. Before the service was starting, some of the people who saw I was at practice told my sister that I shouldn't play because I never attended the church. Then they went to the pastor’s wife and told her the same. Well I didn’t practice so I was relived. But then the pastor’s wife started crying and said she had a vision of God that I should play. Then I went to the prayer room before the service and couldn't stop stressing, all I could think about was that I didn’t know even one song. So we walk up the stage and started playing… I of course, acted like I was playing but had a wonderful experience with God.

I'm the dude with the charcoal Ibanez guitar

After a few weeks I felt eager to play again, I wanted that feeling again. I played in a couple of churches and youth after that but just keep on making mistakes and feel nervous. But there is one thing that keeps me going… I don’t do this for myself or anyone else but for God. This vision in my heart won’t stop and this blog-site is built on faith, I will be an instrument in God’s hands.